I never felt much guilt until now. Last night we had an appointment (we're in therapy for our 14 yo). The therapist very nicely informed me that our son is acting out because of my problems with anxiety & depression. Now I think it would be so much better if I were out of the picture. I'm not threatening suicide; I'd never do that. But I never realized that I was the problem. I can't find a positive way to view this. My depression just went from an 8 to a 9. I've called a doctor for an appointment, but can't get in until Aug 31. I'm on Lesson 14 & should be helped by now, but I'm only worse.

Kinda sounds like you might need a new therapist, unless she was sympathetic and trying to work with you. You know how kids are. All you can do is the best you can. Continue working on yourself, maybe explain to your kid (depending on his personality). Also, it will be a great lesson for your kid to see you recovering not going backwards. Stop beating yourself up (with blame) and start taking action with your thoughts. You're a great parent or you wouldn't be trying to get better. One step at a time, and it's going to take time.

I hope you feel better soon MRT. Just wanted to let you know that therapists, like anyone, aren't always right. The therapist and teachers at the my son's school tried to tell me that my son acted the way he did because of poor parenting. They never had any idea that I ever suffered with anxiety or depression or I'm sure they would have pulled that into the picture. We've since come to find out that my son acts the way he does because he's Autistic. It's a good thing I never believed that therapist because she was wrong. I could have wasted time stressing over some lie and it would have taken away from the time needed to find out what was really going on. Take your own good look at the entire situation and see if that therapist is worth believing or not. Your decision is far more important than theirs.

Thanks for the replies. I believe that this therapist is really good. He has told us that my son has lots of depression, etc because of his ADD. So maybe I'm taking on more than what he intended. But his point was that I need to get myself together, because it is making things worse for my son. He says my son is more sensitive than anyone he's ever seen.

My husband called the doctor's office & they have put me at the top of the list for any cancellation. He goes to her & seems to have a little pull because they have a good rapport.

As I said, I'm worse since starting the program. Could it be that I need to pull away for a while & start back later, maybe after getting on an anti-depressant?

Yes, depression is most definitely a by-product of ADD. Your son is not too young to go through this program himself. I think anyone with depression, no matter where it's from, would benefit from this program. You guys could do the program together.

If you think getting an anti-depressant will help you along then by all means try it. There's lots of other stuff out there on depression. Have you read any of Claire Weekes' books? Her stuff is amazing.

If you didn't want to wait until Aug. 31, maybe try getting an appointment with a psychiatrist? They might be able to get you in a little sooner. But come to think of it, seeing a GP first is always a good thing. That's who your husband's doc is, right? A GP?

Anyway, I wish you lots of luck with what you decide to do. And try not to take on too much guilt because like you said, it was probably not intended.

My son started doing the program with me, but I can't get him to do it anymore. I stopped for a couple of weeks, thinking I could get him back to it, and then decided that he wasn't going to hold me back.

I haven't read any of Claire Weekes' works yet. I am trying to check out a book from the library. It's out at present. I read 2 books on stress & anxiety this weekend & I've started another one.

The doctor that I have an Aug 31 appt with is a GP. I didn't want to go to a Psychiatrist. I took my son to one & she wanted him back every month. It really didn't do any good (she didn't prescribe an anti-depressant for him, just Strattera for ADD, which he refuses to take because it depresses him) and our insurance co-pay is $30 for the first 3 visits. Then we're on our own. I've already been to a doctor once this year & have an appt @ my gynecologist later in the year. Paying for a GP is cheaper (about $75) than a Psyciatrist ($150). I really hope she will take care of it instead of sending me to a Psych.

I'm a little more positive about it than I was this morning.