I've noticed a correlation with some of my obsessive thoughts occuring when I am feeling overwhelmed with motherhood and needing a break from my son. Some days I just feel like I'll never get used to being a mother, and it is so hard, and I begin to feel really guilty about feeling this way. Then, I start to obsessive think. I think its my way of distracting myself from the guilt I feel for sometimes just needing to have a break.

Did anyone or does anyone ever have days or times when they just wish they weren't a mother? Is this normal. I love my son and wouldn't trade him for anything. But I often find motherhood so hard.

Rose,

I have struggled with this feeling of "needing a break" as well. The thing is, I hide in my bed, close my door and just don't want anybody to bother me. Then my husband takes over. Of course there is a lot of guilt. First, because I feel like if "I can't do it", and second, because I feel a lot of resentment from my kids and my husband.

The other day, I caught myself thinking, "If my parents could take care of my kids for about 2 weeks, maybe that would give me a break". Then I fear they would want to stay there!

I wouldn't trade my children for anything, either. But, when I get into this deep depression, I feel like if they would be better off without me. I hate to feel this way. I do know that when I am out of the depression, I have a lot of fun with my kids and I can handle just about anything.

I think it's normal to feel overwhelmed with motherhood. I just don't feel like what I do when I'm depressed is normal. I really feel like if I don't like myself at all.