I'm having problems thinking of some "positive" alternatives to my negative thoughts.

When I catch myself having a negative thought, my mind clutters and I feel like I have to find a positive thought, RIGHT AWAY, and it stresses me out, and sort of clogs my thinking?

Some of my negative thoughts are:
I don't have anything to look forward to and as of right now, my life is going NOWHERE.

My boyfriend and I are on a break because my anxiety was too much for him to handle. What if we never get back together? What if he stops loving me while we're not together/not talking?

My friend saw him at a party on Saturday and said he looked really sad.. At first I thought he might be sad because he misses me, but what if he's sad because he doesn't love me anymore and doesn't know how to tell me?

This is just a few of them. I feel guilty when I try to think positive. I feel like if I think "Hopeful" then I'll just be disappointed, and I'm not ready to feel disappointment.

I understand you issue. It is hard sometimes to actually catch yourself in the negative thoughts and then I panic about what to replace it with. And, am I replacing it with things that I just don't really believe in? I think we are over thinking it and should just accept, stop ourselves when we realize it and say things like...I deserve to be happy. I am supported. I am getting better all the time. etc.

So maybe instead of replacing it with a counteractive thought, I just replace it with anything positive? Anything to get it off my mind?

Gosh, I am having such a bad day today. I was doing so well last week and then this weekend I went out to a friends house and wasnt able to do my tapes and I got all off track.

I miss being happy.

I will be happy though. It's okay. I'll get back on track. I'll just watch TV for now.