I am curious about this program, but of course, I am concerned that it won't be able to help me. I am afraid of death. Wait, I am terrified of death. It consumes my entire day unless I keep myself busy with work or with my children. I worry about my family dying, or even my own death - not knowing if there is really a light at the end of tunnel. Do any of you have any thoughts like this? I feel alone in the world and need a friend who can understand.

Thanks

Hi ro204,

I empathize with you. I don't have that specific fear, but I have had scary obsessive thoughts. My thoughts were more along the lines of "what if I did something wrong to offend God, and He is going to punish me?"

I have learned that trying to fight the scary thoughts just makes them stronger. If you try to ignore them, over time, they lose their power.

Dr Lee Baer wrote "The Imp of the Mind" about OCD and scary thoughts. It has helped me a lot.

You are not alone. I'm rooting for you!

I can 100% relate to you. I am just starting this program also and am praying it works for me. My thoughts are consumed with death also. I have had panic attacks on a daily basis and every SINGLE time I feel like I'm going to die. Usually this happens to me at night when I feel the most lonely and vulnerable. Recently those thoughts have drifted to my mother. I feel like I will not be able to cope if she dies and am so afraid. I understand COMPLETELY.

r0204 "I am terrified of death"

Realy, I have never feared death. Life now that scares me! All the decisions, all the changes, all the problems. I hate it!
I took this course about 3 years ago, and I have never regretted, anything about it, it saved my life, my marriage, my relationships with my family. without this program, I would be dead by now. It takes working just like it is written, and I can tell you as much as I hated journal ling, it was the key to working this program. Once I started journal ling, I started healing. do not neglect it, like I did I virtually wasted that first 4 months, to stiff necked to journal, after I started that it all worked better. You can do it and it will be so good for you, they should have this in school, every 7th grader should have to go though this, we all need to learn how to stand up for ourselves, and lower our expectations of others, and help our selves change, to a more happier, healthier, more peaceful people, in this world. God Bless Lucinda, for sharing this with us. Be glad you have it and don't neglect it the quicker you go through it the quicker you will be loving your life.

Hi Molly,

Wow, we are in the same boat. I'M NOT ALONE! My mother died in a car accident when I was 10. I was in the car with her, it was horrible. I don't think I was mentally capable to deal with it at 10 years old. Then right after I got married, my mother in law got sick with cancer. Watching her die, not able to do anything to stop it, I was forced to deal with that and finally go through the emotions of my own mother dying. Now my fear is that my two daughters will grow up with out a mother. That terrifies me. Seriosly, when I get a headache, I question if it is a stroke!

this program is for you, have some faith & hope give it your commitment.... you will feel so much better, it will do so much more than get you to stop worrying, it will change your life. i just finished this week, i'm the happiest i've ever been!

I can relate to what you are saying. I had a time when I thought about and feared death, it consumed my day and night. Check what you are eating...first I took away chocolate and coffee. This helped me, then I reduced my sugar intake and changed to whole grain foods (gradually). My feelings changed...it didn't go completely away but I felt more hopeful and found interesting things that I could pour myself into. As life starts to have more meaning, death is less fearful. Enjoy your moment, even washing dishes can be fun if you decide it is. I wish you well...I wish you joy. Keep working through the program I believe it is making a big difference in my life.

YES! cut out that caffiene! I didnt beleive the whole caffiene thing until i was feeling so much better, overdid the caffiene & had a panic attack, when i was sure i would never have one again! Also get some exercise, it makes you feel so much better, more alive, and burns off that nervous energy.

Hi there! Just logged in and saw this topic... I'm so curious to know..did this all start when you had children???? My oldest is 8 and since then my anxiety has grown and grown. I have analyzed it down to.. when you're younger and don't have huge responsibilities you don't really think about it-or at least I didn't!- but since I've had children they need me.. I didn't realize it at first and almost allowed it to consume me. Always thinking that something might happen.. fire,some-one will break in,car accident.. to the point now that I'm so darn paranoid I get anxiety when I'm in the shower, I have to keep checking the bathroom door to make sure someone hasn't gotten in the house while I'm in there! Ridiculous I know, but that's where my mind goes and I now in week 2 and ALREADY learning that these things will more than likely not happen and learning at the very least how to recognize when my mind starts this "stuff" how to "cope"! I wish you the best of luck w/ the program and YES I really think you'll benefit!

Hey Liz, I was just like you, and my son is almost 2. I just finished the program. I don't obsess over scary thoughts anymore. The thoughts rarely come into my mind. If they do, I automatically notice what I am doing to myself and stop. This program makes you so sensitive to your inner self that as soon as anything negative comes across your way, you notice it, stop it, and move along. What if your house never burns down and you and your family live a long, loving life?

Hi liz27,

I think it did start when I was pregant with my second daughter. That was right when we were losing my mother in law to cancer. Until that point, I was completely fine. Thank you all for the wonderful advise. I am going to start cutting out the caffine and go from there!

Thanks!

Death is my # one fear. I remember having these thoughts when I was just a child preping for what I would do if my family died! What 9 year old thinks thoes thoughts! My very first panic attack at age 10 was inspired by some one from my school dying, I was sure I was next. Now that I have kids I can really see that this is not normal behavior for kids and that most kids just worry about what webkinz they will get next! If only I started out that way! Now that I do have kids I am deathly (no pun intended) affraid to die and leave them, I am so afraid of this that it is hard for me to enjoy time with them because I just think that I will leave them. These feelings are horrible...yes I do understand where you are coming from, I really hope this program gets rid of these thoughts. I do worry though becaus in the tapes they keep talking about being scared of embarissing yourself or fainting, these do not scare me. Also we can die so how do I get over my fear when this is something so real?

Hi! I just received my package today, and I'm sitting here looking for anything that I can use right away that pertains to me. I know, I'm impatient, and I need to take this course the way it was intended, I'm just so desperate. I feel like my life has been completely ruined by chronic pain from a car accident, uncaring physicians, sexual assaults from age 19, age 24, and age 31. I was attacked after being drugged 2x so sleep and I don't get along. I have a wonderful, caring husband of 11 years, a beautiful little girl that is everything right I have done with my life, but, I am going to lose my job because of my physical limitations, My line of work is my absolute passion, I am having such a hard time imagining life without it. I've attempted suicide before, I took all the medication I could find in my home at the time. I slept for 18 or so hours, then went to sleep again, but, for some reason (at the time I was so disappointed that I woke up, I can't tell you how crushing it is to realize you can't even manage to kill yourself) But, now I am so glad that I lived, I have the little one the docs said I would never be able to have, the relationship that I treasure every moment of, and for a while, I had overcome the first two assaults and had my precious baby. Then the 3rd attack happened. I was alone, and isolated. My husband was in the mideast, I am also military, getting ready to start my dream assignment, and I didn't want to walk in with pending legal action, knowing that everyone would question MY judgement, MY ablility to handle myself, etc. So I dealt with it. Alone, the pain has significantly worsened from an occasional limp to a full time unbearable ache that i can not escape from, and for the past 5 years I have not been allowed to see a neurologist, osteo, or rheumatologist. It makes me feel worthless. I was a very athletic runner, soccer player, volleyball player and coach, and now, just walking more than a mile causes me so much pain I feel like I'm going to die. even swimming doesn't help, the muscles sieze up so often that I have to make sure I am within reach of the side of pool. It really breaks your rythem.

So, I am stuck. The story has a few horrible turns, including a toxic reaction to Cymbalta that is for another day. I am still get up every morning and do everything I HAVE to. The problem is, I want to do more things because I WANT to.

Wish me the best of luck and perserverance. I need all the help I can get. I am used to the panic attacks, they come and go constantly, I know what they are, so I just push through. I want to find an end to the intense pain, narcotics are not the way I want to go, masking the pain doesn't seem like a productive way of managing it. I've allowed the docs at Walter Reed to burn the nerves in my lower back 3x, 1 out of 3 seemed to help, the last time ended so horribly, I'll never allow it again.
Maybe losing my military career 3 years short of 20 years will be OK, it could mean the difference in medical care for me. We'll see. in the mean time, I should get started on my course. Thanks for listening, and thanks to the originator of this post for the insightful beginning, and for having the courage to say what so many others must feel when they start!!

First of all I want to THANK YOU! for our your service! God Bless your heart,
the one thing that will kick start your road to recovery is DRINK 1/2 your weight in PURE WATER every day! and love yourself, you have such a wonderful family who loves you, but you must love yourself, know that your FATHER LOVES YOU more, Let Go of Reasoning, just lead every thought and purpose away captive into the obedience of Christ 2-Corinthians 10-5
I am so sorry the MDs have failed you but I am not surprised. My mother has horrible Arthritis I have spent the last 20 years looking for an alternative for her, with my future in mind, and my husband also getting it.
This summer I found it, go to Knowthecause.com buy Doug's recipe book get on the phase 1 diet, get off of the sugar, additives, and other toxins in your diet, git the PCI ARE, and clean up your house from any toxic particles in the air. doing this saved my life, it is amazing what our Standard American Diet can do to our bodies. and the construction, materials used today even the cleaning chemicals in our lives, or mold (mold was killing me, but that is another story) Mom was on Embril shots, and Mobic, even her arthritus Dr. told her she needed to get off the Mobic, her stomach was a mess she was taking 15 of those purple pills a day. Now she takes an ounce of liquid Calcium, and 4 ounces of Mona Vie a day, she uses an Ionic foot cleanse to support her body in getting out the toxins every 3 days unless she is in pain then she will use it up to 3 times a day & I can't stress this enough you must DRINK 1/2 your weight in WATER every day. I also use this method, last night a migraine was starting and that is what I did, this morning, no migraine! I have had migraines for 36 years, nothing has worked like this does. You have to take care of your self!!!! You have such a big job! rest in peace,raising that child is the most important thing you will ever do,

CFE,
Thank you so much, for your support and advice, my main focus right now is in being the best mommy and wife that I can be. I hope your mother continues to get better every day. I have been working on my home, I'm thinking we may have to rip up the carpet in the walk-out basement, I'm not sure what the mold situation could be under there.

Thank you again, I don't feel so alone. And that means so much! Tomorrow is another day.